Oh I'm so tired. I know, a pregnant woman tired? How cliche! I don't think it's as much physiological but mental like "Holy crap! We are going to have FOUR kids!!" I'm tired but as soon as I go to bed I'm wide awake. Then I lay there for hours. I think about how I'm going to manage the kindergarten class this year without a prep all day. I opted instead for a double prep on my non-kindie days . . . now I'm not so sure that was wise. I'm super worried about telling people. I don't want to see the looks or hear the comments. I'm wondering how long I can go before having to tell people because my belly is just making it too obvious. We haven't told anyone - not even the kids. They would just end up telling everyone and I don't want that either.
Oh yeah and just to update how I told Todd. I got a bouquet of pink and blue balloons with a mylar balloon on the top that said new baby. Then I attached the positive hpt to it. I told Todd I had something to show him. He loved the balloons but didn't quite get the significance . . . he read "New Baby" as "Now Baby". Silly guy! Once he figured it out he was very happy and of course in shock just like me. I think he liked the way I shared the news.
Todd wants to go away to Ottawa this weekend. He says his mom will take the take the kids and I know Matt and Mia will be fine but Gilliebean . . . well she's a challenge on most days. She's super needy. Some days she needs to be held constantly. Sometimes I'll cry her out so I can get stuff done. Other days I'll just sit and hold her and hold her and hold her. I don't want Todd's mom to have to deal with that. It's so frustrating. So I'm on the fence about what to do . . . on the one hand I would love a mini-vacation just with Todd but on the other I'm just worried Todd's mom won't be able to handle G-bean. I think I'll gve her a call tonight and talk it over with her just to make sure she knows what she is getting herself into.
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Oh I just love that Todd is wanting to take you away. Maybe Gillian is most needed when you're around. Does daycare have that same opinion of her?
I think you could use the break...and the sleep too it sounds like.
Congrats again on the new little one!
My kids have always been far worse with me than with others. I'm always worried that they'll act like that with my MIL but they are always so good. But we've never left them overnight.
Go to Ottawa. Have fun! SLEEP!
I love how you told Todd. And I love his reaction. I definitely would take the opportunity to getaway. Because it will be increasingly harder and harder.
I agree that maybe Gillian is acting this way when you are around. Micah will scream and cry but the minute I am out of sight, he is fine. He plays it up. But I also understand your hesitation.
I hope you are able to get away.
Todd is never going to live that story down. It's so funny!
I hope you are able to get away. I know it won't be easy, but I bet it would be worth it.
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