Friends

So I went and visited my friend in the hospital yesterday. She was having a good day thankfully but I left with such a low feeling . . . like I'll probably not see much of her again. It's not that I think she will die. I am feeling really good about how things are going for her. Of course you should not count your chickens before they are hatched but I am confident she will beat this thing. She is a fighter! I just feel like I won't be seeing her again. I can't explain it because it was/is a strange feeling. She indicated she probably won't be coming back at all this school year which I am for wholeheartedly but she is also nor sure she will ever come back. I'm going to try to keep in touch but our lives are going to start to diverge and I am terrible about keeping up with people who are not somehow intertwined in my day-to-day life. I really suck at that part. Outta sight, outta mind. Well not totally out of mind but I get so busy doing things I'll forget to call for weeks at a time and then when I do remember I feel like it's been so long how could I possibility catch up??? How bad am I? This is partly why I have so few friends. Boo